"Bitter"
One of the things I get sick and tired of hearing from the assholes on the right is that I, and people like me, are just "bitter" about the way things are going. Bitter about George W. Bush and the Republicans running the agenda. Bitter about Al Gore and John Kerry. Bitter, bitter, bitter.
Let me say this straight out: I'm not "bitter". "Bitter" is a term the right wing uses to trivialize how I and others feel about what's going on. Would Germans who were appalled at what was going on in Poland be considered simply "bitter" because the Weimar Republic they supported, depsite its failings, fell? Despite the military success of the Nazis inPoland and France, many Germans saw impending disaster for their country, and they were right. I feel the same thing, I'm afraid the USA is going to go down big time, only the righties are so busy being full of themselves they can't see it.
"Bitter" is how you feel after your sports team loses a close game to a controversial call by the umpire. "Bitter" is how you feel after you get publicly dumped by someone you cared about. "Bitter" is how you feel when a co-worker gets a promotion you felt you deserved. "Bitter" is how the right-wingers felt for years, as they watched liberal policies turn this country into an economic powerhouse and disprove everything they ever believed in. But now that they have grabbed power, they're in gloat mode and feel like they can do anything they damn well please, and for the moment they're right. But if what Tip O'Neill said was true, that Democrats made people rich enough to vote Republican, then it's also true that Republicans will eventually make people poor enough to vote Democratic. The only question is how long before enough people say "that's it!" and put an end to it.
No, what I feel, what so many other people feel, is much more intense than mere bitterness. It's a combination of a lot of things: incredulity at some of the remarkably stupid things that people like Rush and O'Reilly say, and even more that so many people listen to them and believe them. It's horror at what's happening in Iraq and that we might try the same thing on Iran and others. It's despair that we will never be able to make enough money to support ourselves because the kinds of jobs that used to be the backbone of the country are being sold off to the lowest bidder, and that our once-great nation is going to be wiped out because of greed and arrogance. And finallt, it's frustration at knowing how powerless we seem to be to stop it all. Like I said before, I'm inadequate to the task.
But even as I was thinking about this, I was contemplating what my life has been like for the last month. I lost my job just before Christmas and am now back on unemployment. Last time I lost my job, I was depressed and lackluster. But not now. One of the first things I did after I got let go was to go to thrift stores and get myself some new dress clothes. You'd be surprised at what you can get at a thrift store these days. I laid out about a hundred bucks for four pairs of pants, three dress shirts, two jackets and three ties. I've never worn a full suit before, and it really surprised me how good I looked: clothes don't generally sit on me well. I've also been doing a lot of work around the house, work that went untended because I was too tired to do it while I was working my job. As I told my wife, organizing my closet is just a symptom of me starting to organize my life. I'm calm and unworried about the prospects for the future. I have no reason to feel the way I do, but I do.
Sooner or later the pendulum will swing back, and it's the right-wingers who will feel "bitter". In fact, if some of the things I have read about the protests at the inauguratio are true, the righties are already starting to feel bitter. Even with all the power in the world, they still feel like they're getting the short end of the stick, and they will, because their kind of hubris is impossible to sustain. And yes, they will be "bitter" because even though their precious politicians will get taken out of power, they'll be better able to support themselves because liberal policies make working conditions better. They'll do just fine, and more power to them as far as I'm concerned. They can be bitter all they want, as long as it's a long and prosperous bitterness.